tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3749860077133839122024-03-13T12:33:02.552-07:00Gay Mormon BrotherI'm a gay Mormon man in a mixed orientation marriage or as my wife likes to say since we both like guys, a same orientation marriage.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-20725190343958609722019-11-18T19:48:00.002-08:002019-11-27T19:50:48.400-08:00UpdateIt's been a while. Brushing the dust off this old blog for a quick post.<br />
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I've basically left the church. How could I stay and support an organization that believed its November Exclusion Policy was from God? How could anyone believe that?<br />
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My life is about to change.<br />
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I've been reading about living authentically and realized I need to come out. So that'll be happening soon. Waiting for Thanksgiving break when all my kids are home. I've been rereading these old posts as I prepare for this semi public coming out. (I'm going to personally tell the people that I care about. Every one else can learn through the grapevine. Something tells me it'll spread fast at church.)<br />
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I guess my really life is about to change... a lot.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-22052731356320377692017-04-14T19:24:00.001-07:002017-04-15T14:30:25.460-07:00ProgressAs a teenager, my church leaders sold a false dichotomy: heterosexual marriage or the “gay lifestyle” (which consisted of cruising and anonymous sex and eventually loneliness, despair, and death, likely from AIDS). I remember one night as I was falling to sleep I had a clear vision of two possible paths my life could go: I could have a family with a wife and kids or I could have a loving relationship with a man. That was when I realized that I didn't have to buy into the “gay lifestyle” narrative. In the end, though, back then I couldn't have both a family and a gay partner. I chose a family (and I have an amazing family).<br />
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Today these two visions are no longer incompatible. If I were coming to manhood now instead of back in the 90’s, I could have a gay husband and we could adopt a family. (How awesome is that!)<br />
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Progress<br />
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<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-77960090410536351952017-04-09T13:37:00.000-07:002017-04-09T13:37:26.268-07:00What about my son?Hello world! It's been a few months because... well... life.<br />
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Today my deacon son passed the sacrament first to his mother, who happened to be sitting up on the stand today, and then to me down in the congregation. As he did, I couldn't help but reflect on his future. I found myself wondering what future I wished for him.<br />
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I believe I've mentioned in past posts that I'm fairly certain he's gay (or at least bi). His type is becoming obvious:<br />
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(Maybe he's not gay, but just has a thing for hot superhero men.)<br />
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I admit that part of me wants him to know the joy that I found watching as he was born, holding him in my arms for the first time, knowing that in a very literal sense he was half my fault (in a good way). The birth of your own offspring is such an amazing, humbling experience. I realize, however, if he is gay that this may not be in his future.<br />
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But I also want him to experience things that I never experienced. I want him to date guys and find out what characteristics he likes and doesn't like in a boyfriend. His older siblings have their heterosexual dating relationships. They kiss each other good night and presumably make out when they're alone (hopefully in a respectful, appropriate manner). Why would I want anything less for my gay son (if he is in fact gay)?<br />
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I absolutely do not want him to remain celibate. The current church teaching, "It's ok to BE gay if you don't DO gay" is complete bullsh*t.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-87428932604207985692016-12-20T12:39:00.001-08:002016-12-20T16:00:16.395-08:00On friendshipI was listening to a podcast today. (On Being with Krista Tippett if you must know.) They started discussing what it takes to build a strong friendship. I started crying. I realized that I don't have many good friends. Besides my wife and kids, I don't have any really. I mean I have acquaintances, people with whom I am friendly. And coworkers with whom I get along. But no real friends.<br />
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The closest I have to friends are my wife's friends. She has lots of friends. And consequently her friends have sort of adopted me. She is popular on Twitter too. She has friends from all over the world. (I'm afraid sometimes she may be too friendly.)<br />
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It's one of the problems with growing up gay in the Church. (Perhaps outside the Church too... I only know the "in the Church" version.) For me, I never had really good guy friends because I wanted more. I wanted them to want me the way I wanted them, but then I would check myself; I wasn't supposed to want more. I never had great girl friends either. Well I did in high school but then I went to BYU. There I had a few girl friends but they wanted to be girlfriends (or at least I feared they did) and so I didn't get too close with any of them or really maintain any of those relationships. Plus, they went and got married and I didn't want their husbands to think I was the creepy guy friend who kept in touch with their wives. (Even if I really was harmless.)<br />
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And I'm sad.<br />
<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-36503612330608227572016-10-30T19:46:00.000-07:002016-10-30T19:46:52.951-07:00mormonandgaySo we're about to hit the one year anniversary of the exclusion policy, you know, where the LDS Church mandated "courts of love" for any one who married his or her true love if they happened to be of the same-sex. And where the LDS Curch barred children of said couples from being baptized until they've reached the age of majority, moved out, and disavowed their parents lifestyle choice. (We wouldn't want anyone sympathizing with "the gays" now would we?)<br />
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The traditional gift for first anniversaries is paper, but this is the modern era. So, to honor this momentous occasion, the Church has given us virtual paper (i.e., a new webpage). It's an update to its mormonsandgays.org website. They dropped the "s" making the site more about the individual than two groups of separate people. (I appreciated Andrew S's post on the topic over at <a href="https://wheatandtares.org/2016/10/25/from-mormons-and-gays-to-mormon-and-gay/" target="_blank">wheatandtares.org</a>.)<br />
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A lot has been said about the website's pros and cons. I'll leave that conversation to others who have more time. I do want to highlight the section that evoked the most emotion in me.<br />
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In Josh's story he says, "Life kicked me in the gut, so I began to explore my homosexuality by dating men. For the first time I understood why heterosexual couples fell in love and what that actually felt like."<br />
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As I read this, I realized that I have never actually felt this. And it made me sad.<br />
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I don't regret getting married, though I do recognize that when I got married it was very selfish and I think that staying married is kind of selfish, but I believe getting a divorce would also be selfish. I have no plans to leave them. We have an awesome family. But I am very pained at what the Church is doing to the next generation, to my children.<br />
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Thankfully Church leaders have stopped publicly telling gay kids to marry as a cure for their homosexuality (though if some of the stories told by exmos are to be believed, they're still privately advocating this).<br />
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But celibacy? Really?!? If homosexuality is wrong because it keeps men and women from their divine roles as parents, is celibacy really a better option? No. I'm sorry, but if one of my children is gay (a distinct possibility) I want them to know what it is like to fall in love.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-57203800060236455042016-09-12T20:22:00.000-07:002016-09-12T20:22:10.071-07:00An awesome Mormon StoriesI highly recommend this Mormon Stories episode. (My fave LGBT themed episode is still the Benji Schwimmer trio of episodes, but...)<br />
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This story so perfectly captures how messy missions can be for LGBT missionaries, from the comp who'd eaten cray cakes (but didn't get sent home) to the wild emotions you feel for other missionaries. (I got lucky and never had a companion who was my type. I did kind of crush on one AP though. We slept in separate beds the one time we did go on splits together. *sigh*)<br />
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Anyway... great stuff this podcast. Nice work Jacob and #JohnDehlin.<br />
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<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-67610123657136897782016-07-10T19:43:00.001-07:002016-07-10T19:43:09.473-07:00(Mixed orientation) marriage & melancholyIn a recent, <i><a href="http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/590/choosing-wrong" target="_blank">This American Life</a>, </i>host Ira Glass interviews Alain de Botton about why people choose the wrong partner when getting married. Botton's thoughts on marriage are gloomily accurate. <span style="text-align: center;">At one point Botton (who by the way has a lovely British accent) explains why melancholy is a helpful trait in a successful marriage. He says</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: medium;">We're trying to do such a complex thing with someone. We are trying to find our best friend, our ideal sexual partner, our co-household manager, perhaps our co-parent, and we're expecting that all this will miraculously go well together. Of course it can't. We're not going to be able to get it all right. There will be many areas of misunderstanding and failure and a certain amount of sober melancholy is a real asset when heading forth into the land of love.</span></i></blockquote>
As I listened to this I realized this quote in part explains why my mixed orientation marriage works. My wife is my best friend, my co-household manager, and my co-parent. In these areas my wife is perfect for me. In these areas (most of the time) her strengths compliment mine well. It's really just in the "ideal sexual partner" category that things aren't perfect, but we make it work.<br />
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I've said it before. I'm not advocating mixed orientation marriages for everyone. I really do hope and pray that everyone learns to listen to the Lord--not the Church or their parents or friends, but the Lord--and find out for themselves what life path He feels is best for them.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-59199225411231655022016-06-09T19:13:00.000-07:002016-06-09T19:13:16.382-07:00Important truths I've learned from TwitterA week or two ago my wife taught me how to use Twitter. I don't really have time for any more social media, but my wife plays a game of trying to get famous people to follow her. It sounded like fun so I thought I'd check out this Twitter thing too.<br />
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Important truths I've learned from the hours spent on Twitter these last few weeks:<br />
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1.) Ari Shapiro, co-host of NPR's <i>All Things Considered</i>, is hot.<br />
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2.) Actually, there's really only the one thing.<br />
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Then Google taught me that besides radio, Mr. Shapiro sings too. Be still my soul!<br />
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<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-61669983154419103742016-06-02T18:09:00.000-07:002016-06-02T18:09:09.582-07:00With this I relate<a href="http://religionnews.com/2016/05/31/christian-rockstar-comes-out-as-gay-heres-the-letter-he-wrote-to-the-world/">http://religionnews.com/2016/05/31/christian-rockstar-comes-out-as-gay-heres-the-letter-he-wrote-to-the-world/</a><br />
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Though not Mormon, I think Trey Pearson's story is one shared by many LGBT members of the church. He mentions how<br />
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"[trying not to be gay] <span style="background-color: white; color: #151719; font-family: , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;">has resulted in a marriage where I couldn’t love or satisfy my wife in a way that she needed. Still, I tried to convince myself that this was what God wanted and that this would work." </span></blockquote>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #151719; font-family: , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;">In my marriage, my wife has sacrificed much to make our marriage work. It makes me sad sometimes, sad for herand for my children who don't have a great role model for what it means to truly love your spouse in all senses of the word <i>love</i>. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #151719; font-family: , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;">Earlier this year a member from a ward we used to live in came out. He and his wife were splitting most amicably. His stated reason for the split: he felt he needed to set his wife free. It's a sentiment I fully understand on one hand and can't comprehend on the other. For</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #151719; font-family: , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;"> now my wife and I will continue to muddle through this messy thing called family.</span><br />
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Here was my response:<br />
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If one of my sons (biologically it would most likely be the last because later birth order significantly increases the likelihood of being gay) comes out to me here is what I will do (or try to do... no one is perfect).<br />
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<li>I will make sure he knows that I love him no matter what </li>
<li>I will teach him that he needs the Holy Ghost in his life </li>
<li>I will remind him that I will love him no matter what</li>
<li>I will also remind that promiscuity does not promote spirituality. (Sex before marriage is a bad idea, even for gay marriage. If he decides he is going to act on his gay desires, but can't find a guy willing to wait until after they get married, perhaps he's not the right guy.)</li>
<li>I will teach him to fast to know the will of the Lord for him, to study the scriptures, to invite the Lord into their life through prayer</li>
<li>I will reiterate that I love him</li>
<li>I will invite him to talk with one or two of my MoHo friends who have managed successful mixed orientation marriages. (<i>I did not add that I would likely come out to him, but when the time is right, I likely would.</i>)</li>
<li>Then if he decides to enter into a mixed orientation marriage, I will ask him to make sure that he is certain before he takes the plunge, reminding him of both the blessings that will be his as well as the unique challenges he will face, reminding him that President Hinkley has warned that gay members not marry as a cure for homosexuality.</li>
<li>If he does get married (in either direction), I will rejoice with him in his entering a relationship that will require him to sacrifice and love in a way he never has before.</li>
<li>I will pray that the Lord never give up on saving him (and his spouse) regardless of what happens.</li>
<li>I will love him.</li>
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* And here are my son's current crushes<br />
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And this one... of which I whole-heartedly <a href="http://gaymobro.blogspot.com/2015/03/my-reading-resolution.html" target="_blank">approve</a>:<br />
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<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-50130532662796905012016-03-25T20:38:00.003-07:002016-03-27T16:11:11.414-07:00Things that make me mournThis is not ok.<br />
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<a href="http://rationalfaiths.com/pearl-great-price/">http://rationalfaiths.com/pearl-great-price/</a>gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-62311977982329864062016-03-15T19:53:00.000-07:002016-03-15T19:53:42.730-07:00"I like your socks!"<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-89774808656570290482016-02-19T18:28:00.000-08:002016-02-19T18:28:16.673-08:00Lane boyBecause this is how I'm currently feeling about things:<br />
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<i><br /></i>gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-57977749530871074602016-01-29T17:34:00.002-08:002016-01-29T17:34:45.090-08:00Words without action<a href="http://m.deseretnews.com/article/865646414/LDS-Church-leaders-mourn-reported-deaths-in-Mormon-LGBT-community.html" target="_blank">This article</a> patting the Church on the back for mourning with families of LGBT who have committed suicide is making the rounds. I too applaud the Church for it's kind words. But words are not enough.<br />
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As an institution we kick you out, then we say through a spokesman that we cry with your family when you kill yourself because among other reasons you didn't feel wanted.<br />
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The article says parents should create "healthy, constructive relationships and environments." Then gives as an example, "Elder Dallin H. Oaks of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints once was asked how he would respond if his 17-year-old son said he was gay. 'You’re my son,' Elder Oaks said. 'You will always be my son, and I'll always be there to help you.'" This is nice. Exactly the response a parent should give <i>if backed up by action</i>.<br />
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Unfortunately the Deseret News article doesn't quote Elder Oaks later <a href="http://www.mormonnewsroom.org/article/interview-oaks-wickman-same-gender-attraction" target="_blank">in the same interview</a> when he said, "I can also imagine some circumstances in which it might be possible to say, ‘Yes, come, but don’t expect to stay overnight. Don’t expect to be a lengthy house guest. Don’t expect us to take you out and introduce you to our friends, or to deal with you in a public situation that would imply our approval of your "partnership"."<br />
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In other words, "I love you son (with my mouth and lips), but my heart is far from you."<br />
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This is the problem with the Church's current rhetoric: it is words without action.<br />
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gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-11954292514141798432016-01-11T19:51:00.000-08:002016-02-19T18:19:57.473-08:005 things I believe; 5 things I know (plus one I'm not sure about)I was in mourning again today as the church doubled down on it's <a href="http://www.sltrib.com/home/3391057-155/lds-gay-policy-came-from-god?fullpage=1" target="_blank">exclusionary policy</a>. So I wanted to take stock of my testimony.<br />
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<b>Things I believe:</b><br />
1.) I have witnessed many miracles that strengthened my faith in God. Would I call it a perfect knowledge? No, but it's definitely moving in that direction.<br />
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2.) I believe God is there watching over all of us, including the weak, old sinner me.<br />
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3.) I believe that Christ has the power to save us all, if we will come to Him and develop charity. (Even our LGBT brothers and sisters who enter into same-sex marriages.)<br />
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4.) I believe God wanted me to marry my wife, even though part of me really wanted to find my own personal Joseph Gordon-Levitt.<br />
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5.) I also believe in the power of personal revelation.<br />
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Corollary to #5: I believe that someone who is not me (see #4) may pray to their Heavenly Father and feel that He has said that gay marriage is ok (for them).<br />
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<b>Things I know:</b><br />
1.) I <i>know</i> without a shadow of a doubt, with every fiber of my being that gay marriage is WAY WAY better than random gay sexual hookups. Thus I am happy for my gay friends when they establish long-term, committed relationships. (And yes, I will attend their weddings if invited.)<br />
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2.) I know that forcible rape is a much worse sin than gay marriage. (I'm pretty sure than sexual abuse and attempted murder are too.)<br />
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3.) I know that children of gay couples are loved by our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ as much as children of heterosexual couples. And they need the gift of the Holy Ghost just as much as their neighborhood friends who are allowed to be baptized.<br />
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4.) I know that children of gay couples will learn about love and charity and kindness in ways that children who happen to be raised by a father and a mother will not.<br />
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5.) I know that I love my wife (see note below) and my awesome family (see <a href="http://gaymobro.blogspot.com/2015/06/fathers-day-2015.html" target="_blank">here</a>).<br />
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<b>Things I don't know:</b><br />
1.) If my wife died, I don't know whether or not I would enter into a homosexual relationship.<br />
Seriously. No idea. (So don't even think about dying, dear.)<br />
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Perhaps I could find some other gaymobro who wanted to stay a non-practicing homosexual. (Maybe he'd have a sexy British accent. Even better if he looked like Damien Lewis. I don't normally go for gingers, but am willing to make exceptions.)<br />
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We could enjoy a monogamous, celibate life together. You know we would totally get married, just to mess with the people at Church (capital C). And who knows, if it turns out homosexuality is ok in the next life, my partner could also be sealed to my wife and we'd all live in a state of celestial, polyandrous, ménage à trois bliss.<br />
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<b>Footnote: Why I love my wife: reason 979</b><br />
Today when I was feeling grouchy (see link above), I opened my email to find a note from my wife.<br />
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It consisted of just this clip and two words: "You're welcome"<br />
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Seriously. Best wife ever.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-66839625240472914652015-12-11T19:41:00.001-08:002016-01-11T20:14:25.484-08:00Is it a sin?"Is homosexuality a sin?"<br />
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This question I can only answer for myself. As I listen to my wife and son singing <i>Rent </i>together at the piano I realize how richly blessed I am. As we laugh together around the dinner table, I realize how richly blessed I am. I believe that for me, choosing homosexuality would have been against God's will for me because He wanted to bless me with this amazing family. (That does not make it easy day to day, but I do have some confidence that it is aligned with God's will for me in my life.)<br />
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But I don't speak for you.<br />
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I will say, however, I fear we often get so caught up in absolutes that we fail to recognize possible exceptions. Somehow, in a Handbook that found room for divorce and even abortion exceptions, we can't comprehend the possibility that, for some, gay marriage may be the best option. (I get that you can't write rules around exceptions. You've got to draw a line in the sandbox. Unfortunately when that line leaves little room for the variation in God's creation, many just choose to find a new sandbox.)<br />
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I have my answer. And I promise to support others as they get their own personal answer for what's right for them.<br />
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"Listen," he said. "The way I look at it is if everyone were gay, society would cease to exist. Therefore, it can't be what's right."<br />
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Over the years I've heard this argument from many people in one form or another. As exhibit A, take page 19 of this <a href="http://ec.libsyn.com/p/9/1/3/913d6fed4525a85a/Principles-To-Govern-Possible-Public-Statement-On-Legislation-Affecting-Rights-Of-Homosexuals-August-7-1984-Dallin-H.-Oaks.pdf?d13a76d516d9dec20c3d276ce028ed5089ab1ce3dae902ea1d06cc803ed9ce5833ac&c_id=8270928" target="_blank">document</a> purportedly penned by Elder Dallin H. Oaks.<br />
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(I obviously have no personal knowledge of this document's authorship, but methinks it reads quite a bit like Elder Oaks.)<br />
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To my roommate many moons ago, I believe my counter went something like, "Yeah, but if we all became accountants, society'd be pretty hard up a generation out." We laughed. the issues with my argument obvious. But thinking about it I believe there's a sliver of truth in it.<br />
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Today, if someone made this argument, I think I would respond, "Yeah, but if everyone practiced celibacy we'd be no better off one generation out. And yet that's what we ask of our homosexual brothers and sisters." So if the one argument against homosexuality is sound, it stands to reason that celibacy is wrong too.<br />
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A concluding note: I want to make very clear, I am not arguing that homosexuality is right nor that it is wrong. I'm merely pointing out that the "if everyone did it" argument doesn't hold water. The morality of homosexuality must be decided on different terms.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-69168172223684709972015-11-07T12:52:00.001-08:002016-01-11T20:07:56.063-08:00MourningI am currently not posting. I'm too busy mourning with my brothers and sisters. It was a covenant I made when I was lucky enough to be baptized at 8 years old.<br />
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gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-13243061460324105192015-07-05T19:58:00.000-07:002015-07-05T19:59:34.057-07:00Thoughts on today's church serviceSo let me just say that church was not nearly as bad as my wife and I had prepped for. Sometimes bracing for the worst is the best inoculation for the well meaning but often insensitive remarks of fellow members zealously defending the family. If we had played the <a href="http://janariess.religionnews.com/2015/06/30/the-progressive-mormons-survival-guide-to-this-sundays-testimony-meeting/" target="_blank">testimony drinking game</a>, we would only have taken one small gulp from our sippy cup.<br />
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There was a brief announcement about President Packer's passing. I have to admit I have mixed feelings about President Packer. I love his talk "<a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1995/04/the-shield-of-faith?lang=eng" target="_blank">The Shield of Faith</a>." I was a missionary when he gave this address. I remember listening to it and being filled with a desire to have a family of my own. For that I am and will ever be eternally grateful. But then I got home from my mission and learned of his earlier talk excusing an elder for punching his companion for being gay. Surely the Lord would not encourage such behavior. Why hold this up as an example for all to see?<br />
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Third hour included the Bishop's reading of "<a href="http://timesandseasons.org/index.php/2015/07/a-letter-from-salt-lake-city/" target="_blank">the letter</a>." It wasn't the letter itself I feared; I worried about our congregation's right-wing crazies taking the opportunity to "discuss" how the world is going to hell in a hand basket (though I'm sure it will be a very pretty basket... probably a nice picnic basket with a lovely blanket for our last meal before the fire and brimstone. S'mores anyone?) Luckily the Bishop's call for questions met with complete silence for 10 seconds and the meeting was adjourned. Other than being a bit awkward, it was rather a non-event. The real throw-down comes next month when the Teachings for Our Times topic is Elder Perry's "Why Marriage and Family Matter." I may have to be sick that week.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-28237416342284047372015-06-21T20:27:00.000-07:002015-06-21T20:27:08.883-07:00Father's Day 2015On this Father's Day 2015 I want to say how grateful I am that my life turned out the way it did. Looking back I see many possible pivot points where with a different choice I would not be married to an amazing woman with such a fantastic family. (I wouldn't be completely honest if I didn't admit that there are days when I wonder what life would have been like if I had found the man of my dreams and settled down with him, but those are only days in a life of months and years.) I am certain that even if I chose differently, life would have been both marvelous and mundane because... well... because that's life.<br />
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As a teenager I knew enough not to buy into the false dichotomy that many members of the church set up. "Either you stay in the church and become a Peter Priesthood with 5 fat babies and celestial potential or you leave the church for the gay lifestyle, cruising for easy sex with anonymous people, get AIDS, and die. Your choice." That's rubbish. In high school I crushed on this one guy who was both totally hot (though kind of short) and a really nice guy. I remember one night in a moment of clarity thinking, "I could totally live with this guy (or someone like him) just the two of us and be happy OR I could get married and have a family with my own kids and be happy." (At the time I was in high school having both wasn't an option. Gay marriage and adoption are definitely opening possibilities.)<br />
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I am not in any way advocating this life for others. (It is not easy.) I'm just saying nights when we sit around singing songs from <i>Once</i> or watching Marx brothers movies<i> </i>or telling jokes that might make the bishop blush (just a bit), these nights are pure gold.<br />
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<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-52586323177128394232015-05-11T20:08:00.003-07:002015-05-11T20:08:53.601-07:00AuthenticityI've tried to be more authentic this year--not just on my blog, but in my personal life as well. At the beginning of the year I made a few goals not really New Year's resolutions because I made them in early November. Like most New Year's Resolutions though I haven't been perfect at them, but I have patience with myself and I haven't given up.<br />
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My first goal was to write again. As a child I always wanted to be a writer. I wrote screenplays. At the end of third grade I wrote a screenplay for the Muppets meet <i><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Out_of_Control_%28TV_series%29" target="_blank">Out of Control</a> </i>with a Simon and Garfunkel soundtrack.<i> </i>(Write what you know!) I loved losing myself in a made up world. (Sure, in third grade it was a made up world I appropriated from others; but by sixth grade it was a world of my own creation.) I remember in fourth grade when we had to do an oral report on our professional aspirations, I declared in 5 to 7 minutes that I wanted to be a screenwriter, live on the West Coast, and win the Academy Award for best screenplay. (Do you think a Muppets/<i>Out of Control </i>mash-up would win in the Original or Adapted category? Probably original.)<br />
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Somehow between elementary school and adulthood I stopped writing. I have been generally content with my non-writing life, except when I watch movies like <i>Good Will Hunting</i> which leave me thinking "I can do that." (My scoutmaster always said, "Novices make easy look hard; experts make hard look easy.")<br />
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So, after rewatching <i>Good Will Hunting</i> last fall, I made a goal to write more this year. I managed a few chapters of pure rubbish and realized that before I could write more I needed to read more. (Always open to recommendations. I discovered tonight the audio version of Nick Hornby's <i>Slam</i> is read by <a href="http://gaymobro.blogspot.com/2015/02/girlfriends-boyfriends-and-man-crushes.html" target="_blank">Nicholas Hoult</a>. Be still my heart!) And so even though I'm not writing yet, I'm reading fiction again. I consider it research to make my writing better. I'm sure my future readers (all four of them) will thank me one day.<br />
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My other main goal was to sing again. All through high school, music was my main outlet for, well, for me. In college I sang with BYU's Men's Chorus. When my wife and I first got married, given my sexual preferences, we often joked that I was a tenor in every sense of the word. (Apologies to any straight tenors--I'm sure there are a few of you out there though I doubt they are reading my blog--who feels maligned by my stereotyping.)<br />
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Then I got a job and a family and soon found myself making less and less time for music. This year I was going to rediscover this great love. With this goal too I haven't done as much as I'd hoped, but I am looking forward to singing in a choir again very soon. We will be singing with a small ensemble in England later this summer. The first week will be singing with some sightseeing (and fish and chips and much Cadbury I'm sure). The second week will be exclusively for sightseeing (and Indian takeaway and more Cadbury). As I look forward to this coming vacation I admit I am more excited about the first week than the second. (We'll be singing in a cathedral! I can't wait.)<br />
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So there it is: me, embracing my true self again (albeit imperfectly).<br />
<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-65733506356941195312015-04-06T18:30:00.000-07:002016-01-11T20:14:25.480-08:00Cake or death*With Indiana's less than perfect religious liberty law offending LGBT and allies every where let me draw your attention to this <a href="http://www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2015/04/03/critics-of-indianas-religious-freedom-law-are-trying-to-have-their-cake-and-eat-it-too/" target="_blank">articulate analysis</a> about cake politics and religious exemptions.<br />
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<i>*I admit this article made me think of Eddie Izzard.</i><br />
<br />gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-52004733454413464712015-03-08T19:39:00.002-07:002016-01-11T20:14:25.477-08:00Echo chamberToday during Ward Council we learned a ward member recently went inactive in part because they disagree with the church's stance on gay marriage. One council member pointed out that the Lord's standards are the same for homosexuals as for everyone else: sex is permitted only between a man and a woman properly married. If you're not married, no sex whether you are homosexual or heterosexual.<br />
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Another person explained how they tried to "help" this person by sending an email that explains that while we love people who expeience "same-sex attraction" the Lord's standards of chastity will never change and homosexuality is considered wrong in God's eyes. It is contrary to the plan of happiness that Heavenly Father has prepared for us. (The "helping" not surprisingly has not translated in increased activity.)<br />
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Then a third person chimed in and repeated essentially the same arguments as the first two, though added that sometimes people say they have doubt's because they don't want to give up their sins. I see this now for the echo chamber that it is.<br />
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As I reflect on this experience I sorrow because of my own personal lack of spine. If I could get a redo, I hope I would say something like, "If someone expresses a doubt about a particular doctrine, perhaps the best way to persuade them to stay with the church isn't to keep reiterating the doctrine they disagree with. This only reinforces the fact that we think they are wrong. Perhaps instead we should just say, 'There are things I don't agree with, doctrines I don't understand. Keep coming to church to invite the Lord into your life. Keep taking the sacrament to renew the commitments you made at baptism. That's all God asks. Feel free to disagree with points of doctrine if you believe strongly about an issue.'"<br />
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The problem is really that last bit. How can you disagree with a doctrine the Church is SO vocal about and stay active? If you made your opinion known vocally every time gay marriage came up in church, you would quickly be labeled the ward apostate.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-74115033976855184192015-03-04T19:34:00.001-08:002016-02-19T18:18:57.719-08:00Reasons I love my wife #71,397 (or Mr. Wickham)Update on my <a href="http://gaymobro.blogspot.com/2015/02/girlfriends-boyfriends-and-man-crushes.html" target="_blank">girlfriends post</a> from last week. This weekend my wife and I watched <i>Death Comes to Pemberly. </i>After, my wife made a joke about loving me even though I'm not Mr. Darcy. Then she said, "I was going to ask if you love me even though I don't look like Elizabeth. But then I realized I should ask if you love me even though I don't look like Mr. Wickham."<br />
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Of course I love you because you ARE my Jane.<br />
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It's great to have a wife who isn't afraid of my admiring good looking British men.gaymobrohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10201407384185948608noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374986007713383912.post-85279547728240323172015-03-01T19:17:00.000-08:002015-03-01T19:17:38.421-08:00My reading resolutionI had a lot of fun with my last post. Besides getting to post pics of pretty boys, it was great fun to just be real. One of the problems with an anonymous blog is the lack of personal details. I may want to share a funny story about my 15 year old son, but hesitate in sharing any real details lest my ward's gossiper recognize and out me. This lack of personal detail can lead to a lack personality.<br />
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While I'm not sure I'm ready to come out to my kids or at work, after the last post I realized the type of person reading this blog is less likely to be the ward busybody and more likely to be someone open to a gaymobro married with kids. So if they happen to discover my identity... well that's probably ok. Why not include more personal details?<br />
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Here goes:<br />
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One of my New Year's resolutions this year was to read more, write more, and watch less. (The only new TV show I've added to my regular watching rotation is <i>The Flash</i>. I admit I enjoy a good superhero story and for a CW show it has surprisingly little soap opera. Plus it doesn't hurt that Grant Gustin is easy on the eyes... and can sing.)<br />
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So over the past two months I've read more fiction than I had in the previous 12. I tend to gravitate to young adult fiction. It's because my wife likes YA so she got me started with John Green's <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Abundance-Katherines-John-Green/dp/0142410705/ref=la_B001I9OQNE_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425264130&sr=1-4" target="_blank">An Abundance of Katherines</a>. </i>I also enjoy the first person voice typical of YA fiction. At the end of the day, fiction is all about getting to know a new character. First person often (not always) helps me get inside the character's head.<br />
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In an attempt to find books with strong teenage male voices, without even meaning to, I ended up reading back-to-back a couple of gay-themed novels including <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Will-Grayson-John-Green/dp/0142418471/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425263990&sr=1-1&keywords=will+grayson+will+grayson" target="_blank">Will Grayson, Will Grayson</a> </i>and <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Aristotle-Dante-Discover-Secrets-Universe/dp/1442408936/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1425264260&sr=1-1&keywords=aristotle+and+dante+discover+the+secrets+of+the+universe" target="_blank">Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe.</a></i><br />
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Before I complain about <i>Aristotle</i> let me first solicit recommendations<b>. What are you reading that you recommend: gay, straight, YA, grown-up, chicklit, whatever? </b><br />
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Now, after a big ole SPOILER ALERT, on to my complaints:<br />
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In <i>Aristotle,</i> Ari (short for the philosopher) meets Dante at the pool one summer day and the boys become fast friends. I loved the first half of the book. The two boys have distinct characters and their friendship reads genuine. I'm a sucker for friendship tales.<br />
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I was fine with Dante coming out. That was about as obvious as an electric billboard in Times Square. I appreciated the fact that Ari was OK with this, even though he was not necessarily gay. He did institute a "No kissing" rule though. As a gay teenager who wouldn't want a strong friend willing to stand by you whatever?<br />
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(One last spoiler alert. If there is the slightest chance you might read this book, stop reading this post now.)<br />
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My biggest issue with the book? In the end, everything revolved around homosexuality. Every subplot somehow tied into it. Besides Dante's outness, there were disowned lesbians and not one but two hate crimes. Then the last chapter had Ari's parents sitting him down and telling him that he was gay. He didn't figure it out for himself. His parents had to give him a beer and break it to him. "Son, given your behaviors x, y, and zed, don't you think you are gay?" And just like that, Ari realizes and embraces his new sexual identity.<br />
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I'm all for books that help gay teens see themselves and know that they are OK. And who wouldn't want parents as understanding and compassionate as Ari's? But a book that ties everything together using homosexuality is not healthy. Sure, being gay is going to affect many factors in a teenager's life, but it's not the only thing that happens. Gay teens need to see that life's joys and heartaches are influenced by factors other than one's sexuality.<br />
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In my opinion, the book would have been better without Ari's outing. Why not let him just be Dante's fiercest advocate and forever friend? Or just end the book without Ari making up his mind whether he is gay or straight? And if you must have your protagonist realize he's gay, at least spend a few chapters (instead of a few measly pages) with him coming to terms with his sexuality.<br />
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In short, it started out with so much potential...<br />
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